i lost myself since the last time i've logged on to blogger. its pretty unfortunate, really. i could retrace my steps but i still wouldnt know where to look. all i know is that i opened my eyes and saw myself in a position that i never envisioned myself in. i dont know. i'm scared. i'm miserable. i dont know what it feels like to happy anymore. i just need the sun to shine on me one good time and hopefully that'll help.
Monday, November 29, 2010
my feelings were hurt today... by my boyfriend. i'm dealing with some things in my life and i know he is too. so i'm supporting him but where the hell is MY SUPPORT??!
i'm always too busy caring for everyone else that i forget about myself. who is gonna care about me if i don't? NO ONE. i've learned that. so i guess i better start being selfish like everyone else around me not not give a fuck about anyone except THEA MARIE CONNER.
i wanna say FUCK IT
but then again... i could never do that