Saturday, June 26, 2010

i'm living a lie

How can i be AGAINST Animal Cruelty and still Support Abortion?
Thats like me eating a big juicy burger and still call myself Vegetarian.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

please make it go away!!

Avoiding this situation will not make it disappear. Unfortunately, its seems that i should face it now.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

i cant, i wont, i refuse to!

my entire family is broken into tiny little fucking pieces and i'm left to pick em all up.
see what they have yet to realize is that i cant do it!
i cant pick up the pieces of our failing lives!
i cant help you be strong when i'm weaker than you.
i cant wipe your tears away when holding i'm back my own!
i cant possibly care about your feelings when i'm neglecting my own!
i'm not trying to be selfish but you're killing me, i'm dying inside!
i cant do it on my own
i wont
i refuse to

and i'm too scared to tell any of you this so i'll continue to allow you to destroy my soul, til there's no more Thea left. its a fucking shame! but i have no other option... for now

dont get used to this bitches, i'm gonna figure something out...


it was scary overwhelming brought upon by fear
this feeling over took my entire being
it was like the beginning of a flood
& instead of my flood gates opening
to let this feeling free
i clenched tight
with everything in me
too "strong" to let it free
so it remains
and so do the tears
so do the fears and
the emotions that have left me emotionless
they remain hidden
very few have the key
if you are the owner
please please dont use it again

SN: yes i am aware that there is no punctuation. that was intentional.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

hello again

i've been going through so much lately but i've found it extremely hard to express myself using this blog. idk why, but it is...

i would say pray for me... but....... yeah

you can pray for my Grandma though, she believes in that stuff

Friday, June 4, 2010

i dont wanna be that girl

“the girl who seemed unbreakable; broke
the girl who seemed so strong; crumbled
the girl who always laughed it off; cried
& the girl who never stopped trying; quit”