its still bothering me. i shouldn't have let it get that far. i knew what was gonna happen since the first night you slept in my bed. you're not slick. it didn't JUST happen. i wanted it just as much as you but i didn't expect it to actually happen. idk. i guess it was just my mistake for going along with it all. come on now son. i'm not dumb. i know that if you play with fire, you will get burned... and indeed i did.
but hey i know how you are. so i knew how this would end.
i put this here in hopes that you would see it cuz i'm pretty sure we wont be talking anytime soon.
i lost myself since the last time i've logged on to blogger. its pretty unfortunate, really. i could retrace my steps but i still wouldnt know where to look. all i know is that i opened my eyes and saw myself in a position that i never envisioned myself in. i dont know. i'm scared. i'm miserable. i dont know what it feels like to happy anymore. i just need the sun to shine on me one good time and hopefully that'll help.
my feelings were hurt today... by my boyfriend. i'm dealing with some things in my life and i know he is too. so i'm supporting him but where the hell is MY SUPPORT??!
i'm always too busy caring for everyone else that i forget about myself. who is gonna care about me if i don't? NO ONE. i've learned that. so i guess i better start being selfish like everyone else around me not not give a fuck about anyone except THEA MARIE CONNER.
I want to start by saying that I love you so much.
I’m so lucky to have you as my woman and potential wife it feels so good to know that your mine and I’m yours baby I can’t do nothing but smile at the fact through it all we have been devoted to each other through the thick and thin baby I’m here to stay for you, I love you I will always be there when you need me baby.
I just want you to know you’re my queen and you’re very special to me I will always stand up for you, and fight for our love baby. I have no problem doing whatever for you baby because you’re my Queen and you deserve to be treated exactly like which you are baby. Doe I’m not poetic baby this note should let you know what I’m feeling how I view and love you Thea.
I want you to read me baby my book never is closed I’m thoughtful to your kind, baby the small things matter to me, when you’re not feeling good I’m not because I want to make you feel comfort, protected, and comfortable with me.
Baby I’m sincere as I write this because this is what you mean to me and just how important you are if you didn’t know baby.
You’re amazingly beautiful to me, you have been that since the first time we met I was amazed with you fell in love with you from the start baby. I wanted you to be my woman. You’re very smart and I trust you, with my heart as you do me, I will take good care of you baby because you mean so much to me and this future I want, without you its pointless because with you I’m happy.
Baby I just want to show you I care for you and I enjoy my time with you, when I’m not working nor at school baby the memories we make are forever lasting baby there here to stay with us as we take on this life together baby. There are always appropriate times and places for affection. I love you, and love giving it only to you, and to see you smile when we’re intimate does something to me, and that’s make me happier because you are baby and your right about something I love to look at you when you’re not looking because inside I’m the happiest guy out there to have you, and just the fact I know I got your attention is so wonderful baby.
I’m proud to be your man baby and I love walking in the park with you at late nights, kissing, holding hands and all we can do together baby the times are priceless baby. I want you to know I pay attention and I’m very attentive toward you baby. I love you thanks for giving me the opportunity baby. I love you always and forever true and I’m very grateful to have you.
I made the commitment to invest in us and you this is our investment toward our future baby.